Often I am describes as tough, straight-forward, practical, open and liberal. A little unusual from the "typical" Filipino woman who is perceived to be submissive, soft-spoken and conservative. I would admit that I am hardly typical and would not content myself from holding back my thoughts.However, despite this "tough" exterior, deep down I am still a typical woman who would want to be cuddled, understood, wooed, cared, and loved as if nothing else matters but me.
In my quietest moments I have imagined myself being wooed by a man - given gifts, treated with care, defended, looked at with utmost love. They bring me smile and makes me wonder: would I ever find myself being cared for as a woman?
In all my relationships I feel that my partners have forgotten that I am still a woman; that no matter how tough and independent I may be I would still want to be once in a while be treated like a princess - defended as if I am a precious china.
It is a pity that at my age I am still waiting for this. Silently praying that my boy friend would stop, look at me differently, look into my eyes and tell me that I make his world go crazy.
And I hope that when that day comes, that the thinking me would allow the feeling me to take control.
