What Makes You Happy

I had - what I may say - one of the most rewarding conversations I've had with my former supervisor.

I am currently at a point where I feel no satisfaction with my job. I am just doing it for the money it gives every pay day. I find no personal fulfillment, happiness, contentment whatsoever. I know that it is a very pathetic state to be into more specially that my job entails motivating people to perform. The irony of it all!


I was looking for options and trying to find another job hoping that I would be able to bring back the motivation back to my now exhausted motivational level. And again, my eyes are welling because I remember my agents back in Baguio. I remembered how caring and thoughtful they were, and how we have practically spent our days laughing at ourselves or sharing stories about our own lives. To say that we have a harmonious relationship is an understatement. We have formed friendships. And to date they are still the epitome of a team for me.

But then I could drown my self with nostalgia and everything will still stay the same. I am still bound to face the situation I have. And yes, I have tried more than once, in fact I try each day I go to work to find one thing or anything that could make me make to love it like I used to but each day, I go home tired - not from work but because I was there but not for the right reasons.


So there I was one pretty ordinary morning, blankly staring at the monitor and trying to find a job online when I noticed that my former supervisor was online from my instant messenger. We had a small talk and I told her that I do not feel happy with my work anymore and am considering to find another job. She told me: "You are still young. Find what makes you happy." And there I was dumbfounded as if I have just won a million dollars and still cannot believe that I won. Yes, I am still young and I should find what my happiness is, and where my heart lies.

To cut the story, I got out of that company and now am very happy and content with my new one. Yes, there were the usual bumps and turns but I am happy with the people that I work with. I feel open with them and feel that they can accept me for who and what I am and I guess that is one of the most important components that makes working fun.

Most Embarassing Moment

If asked what is the most embarrassing moment of my life, I always get spaced out - not that I do not have any; I just cannot recall one. But if you would ask me that question now, I have a ready answer. Here goes my embarrassing story.

It was the usual hectic day at work. I was assisting my team and would occasionally help agents from other teams too.

So as I was busy with my paperwork, an agent approached me and told me he got an escalation and he needs help. I looked around. There were no supervisors on the floor but me. Ugh, I got to take the escalation (I hate taking escalations). So I walked to this agent's station which is like 3-4 bays away from my team's. As I was standing beside him while he was prepping his caller, I noticed that the two agents in front of me. They were whispering to each other. My gut tells me they were talking about me. Why? I have no idea.

So I took the escalation, talked to the fuming irate caller and ended the call. I decided to go to the jane to take a pee. And there I got my answer. the front of my pants has a very big stain - blood stain. I did not notice that my period was too heavy enough to stain my pants. That is just half of the embarrassment.

I have no extra pants stashed away somewhere in the office so I have to go home. I have to inform my Boss that I need to quickly go home and change. So I knocked on my Boss' office, opened the door and said "Boss, I have to quickly run home. I need to change my clothes." My boss took a few seconds to digest what I said, let out a knowing smile but permitted me anyway. My Boss happens to be a guy.