I live like there is no tomorrow, love as if I do not know heartache, dream as if i have not known failure, embraced the world as if it embraced me back, and I write as if I will die without words.
I am Ayien.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

-anticipation-

i always say that the anticipation part of any event is the hardest. crossing the days off your calendar or counting the number of hours left before an event is trying.

i dont know how many times have i been in this situation: my partner and i made out and my period becomes delayed. i painstakingly count the number of days when i can run tests to verify if i am pregnant or not. it stirs various emotions namely excitement, fear and anticipation. excitement is very obvious. fear because ours is a complicated situation and being in such a condition would be very problematic not just for me and my partner but for the upcoming baby. and again, anticipation of or the presence or the absence of a child. for the confirmation of either of the possible scenarios would determine the next step that i ought to take as an individual and us as a couple.

waiting is always tough because you are placed in a position where you hardly any control of the situation. in a way you fall victim to the anticipation of the possible outcome of the waiting period.

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