I live like there is no tomorrow, love as if I do not know heartache, dream as if i have not known failure, embraced the world as if it embraced me back, and I write as if I will die without words.
I am Ayien.

Monday, February 21, 2005

it has been a long time since i last wrote anything other than school papers. it has been a long time since i last fed myself with letters that trasform themselves into words spelling out my inner being.

... i decided against writing.
... i chose to stop writing (permanently)

as a writer, he said, i live in a world of fantasy. i dont see reality, all i have are hallucinations, imaginations, delusions, or in plain simple english... stupidity.
and yes, stupid as i am, i believed him. i believed that indeed i live in a world of illusions, of dreams that remained as dreams. i believed that i should start living in "reality" as he have so bluntly put it.
and so stupidly, i did. i started to breathe the same polluted air he breathes, think the same corrupted thoughts he thinks...it felt like hell.

so, what has become of me now? FREE...
I am writing again
I live in my "unreal" world again....This is life...

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