I live like there is no tomorrow, love as if I do not know heartache, dream as if i have not known failure, embraced the world as if it embraced me back, and I write as if I will die without words.
I am Ayien.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

- dilemma-

for most people moving up the ladder is one of the primary goals. it used to be mine. at this point i am just a step away from my goal when i first came here.

i guess most of the time when when what we want is beckoning us, we try to ignore it or pretend that it is just on the bay. in my case, i am just scared of the greater responsibility that moving upwards entails. it happened t o me in the past. i got a position that i am not yet ready for. consequence: my team suffered for my incompetence. it is a pathetic scenario to be into. much as i would like to hone a team of brilliant people, it's just too difficult because i needed as much molding myself. i do not want to be in that situation again. and right now, though my team is performing very well, i still feel that i am still a kitten in this business.

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