I live like there is no tomorrow, love as if I do not know heartache, dream as if i have not known failure, embraced the world as if it embraced me back, and I write as if I will die without words.
I am Ayien.

Monday, September 10, 2007

-hating me-

i am hating myself right now because i still continue fooling myself that i have flushed you out of my systen. i have not. i still miss you and still find myself saying your name. yes i have earsed everything that will remind me of you - but not your memories.

its so hard more especially when i know how quickly have you gotten over me and here i am struggling over to forget you. trying so hard not to think of you. doing my best to divert my attention somewhere else.

i hate it. i hate the fact that i started this as a game but i am the one being played around in the end. i hate it because you had it all figured out and i got entangled to all complications that i have created for myself.

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